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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 29.06.2025 00:03

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

How do you raise well-behaved children?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

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I think the readers, may guess!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Would this be the day?

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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I could never make a relationship work though!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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I never cut or harmed myself..

Comes on , in middle age.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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She loved him until the end.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

This is soul school!.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I was 9 years of age.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But, we were locked up after school.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

We were not on the streets..

And i lived it daily.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was in good health!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was scared of men, in general

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im still living with it.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I will be 64.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

So, i spoilt her more .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

This is how, and why children get BPD.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I have no regrets .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

One cannot live in the past .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Why did i forgive my father ?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He resisted the act ,that day.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My life is so biszare .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Especially a lifetime of it.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

We all went to grammer schools

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He knew the spot.

I was very sick at this time too.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I was seconnd youngest,

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But it wasn’t much.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I don,t even have a pension.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She wouldn,t have been !

But ive been too sick for many years..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

So whats the point in blame.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I waited trembling.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She found it foreign!.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I write beautiful poetry .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

It was going to be , some day.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I said to her

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Put me off passion for life!!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Ive learnt so much.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She married twice! .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

All the time i was locked up.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

What did i know ?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My family never makes their pension either.

Who then, do I blame.?

When she asked me how she looked .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.